Friday, September 15, 2006

Ever just been miserable...

I have no excuses... I've just been miserable lately.

I have caught myself sitting in my living room and not being able to find one single thing to be happy about. I don't starve daily like many people in the world, I'm not homeless, I'm not wondering where my next paycheck is coming from, I'm not alone ( I have a husband and family) I'm not experiencing some acute, horrible problem that is rocking my world. As a matter of fact, I have had problems in the past that have loomed large over my life and I handled them with more grace and joy than I am handling my lack of problems now. My attitude is just pathetic, ridiculous, and pitiful. I am so sick of myself it is palatable.

So that's why I'm writing. I have decided that my entire attitude is the result of a piss poor focus on all the things in life that "I'm not" rather than what I am. I have been focusing on what I don't have rather than what I do have. I zeroed in on all of the good things that could be, but aren't rather than all of the wonderful things that are right now. I believe firmly that your attitude is a result of what you choose to focus on moment by moment and what conclusions you decide to draw off of your experiences. I also believe that what you focus on grows and it is up to you to make that work in your favor or not. I have decided to focus on the goodness in life and what is truly important right now.

This will be my space to announce what I am grateful for to the universe. You can send me what you are grateful for too and if I deem it appropriate I'll post it. We can create a big stream of positive energy out of here ... Imagine what can happen.

I feel better already!